It was just this little exercise I did one day recently …
I listed all the times in my life when something really challenging had happened and I felt like part of me died right then and there.
There were a lot of times ~ phew! I was surprised to find that I was still alive!
So then I listed all the times in my life when something really wondrous had occurred and I felt my soul soar and I lived, revivified.
Well, there were many many of those times also ~ phew! I was surprised to find I had not ascended in bliss and was still here!
And then this awareness dawned on me and I wrote a little:
The truth is I choose
whether to live
or to die
in any given moment!
The responsibility
of that is enormous to me
and to the world
(if my presence
makes a difference
that is)
To shine like the sun
or eclipse myself
out of life’s vicissitudes,
to choose love
or darkness …
My greatest choice
is to choose to be me ~
To love God and myself
before any other thing,
To side on the side of Life
and not fall into the ravine,
To choose to be Happy
no matter what,
To choose Creativity
even if I don’t know
what or how,
To choose Love
even if I don’t know
who or when
or where,
To choose Truth
even when I’m deathly afraid.
I must be in
some kind of free fall,
some kind of archetypal
descent,
the only thing I know
is that the Phoenix
does exist
and that’s all
I need
to know
to take one more
breath.
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